Since I went through some really tough stuff in 2011, I feel that I should take the time to look back on what actually was good and enjoyable in 2011. I'm going to go in chronological order & hopefully I don't miss anything!
-Hanging out and talking more with some people from UWG and from Block I (Amanda, Ruth, & Megan). Working on projects with Amanda & Ruth. Talking to Megan about the drama and being able to relate, which made me feel better. Going out to eat and hanging out was fun & helped get my mind of things!
-Going to Aryon's for one night. Vented a lot & he was there to support me through some of the drama. Racks on Racks, Katt Williams
-On the Border with my mom on her birthday.
-Going to Aryon's for 2 nights with Ashley and some other people. Had a blast with their friends and family. Crank that Lion King Wop, ghost ride the whip in the parking lot, fried oreoes, Ashley trying to study in the closet, "What do I look ordering dough?" I think I at out 5 times that weekend haha!
-Ashley coming over one day in March to go to IHOP and chat. All those hilarious, random pictures we took! :D
-Having Starbucks at Target with Priscilla. So glad she also listened to me vent! :)
-Got a 4.0 in Spring semester with 20 credit hours and dealing with all the drama.
-Got promoted at Papaya!
-My sister's graduation. It was kind of hectic, but Ashley spent the night & we watched old home videos of when we were cool kids.
-PCB, Florica!!! Kind of was against the trip at first for a few reasons, but I wish I was still there! Honk, HEYY!, 2 mile walk to Walmart, fire alarm at 1 AM & Leila hitting me (as I slept) saying "Loretta" thinking me it was my phone alarm, LEGIT 12 scoops of ice scream so we wouldn't waste any, the Peligrino bottle in the bed, IT'S SO COLD, Pearl, My name is Jack, grenade whistle, screaming each time a wave came, "The Situation" sunglasses, rock music, he wrote it on a napkin, the pool guy, grab the documents, the window, watching "The Hills", hotel gym and being on the elevator for like 5 minutes, ok cool guy, IN THIS BIT
-Summer classes. I actually miss living in my on campus apartment and those roomies I had. They were literally the best ones I've had! Cooking dinner, going to the gym for like 3 hours to run & do yoga. Starbucks before my class (discoverd my love for Green Tea Lemonades or GTL haha). It was a good balance to be there during the week and then come work 3 days at home on the weekend.
-Meeting Lisa and making one of the best decisions of the year for myself. I was able to overcome so much and realize who I truly am through her help. I can't even say how grateful I am for that. I am really going to miss our weekly talks.
-Laser Tag!!!
-Things working out for Leila with college issues because I was really worried about it.
-Renting a whole bunch of Redbox movies
-Leila & I realizing our drive and determination for certain things to work and for us to become more successful
-The day Leila & I went to GSU for her chem test and then we went shopping after. Crazy & long day!
-Aryon, Mansoor, & Brandon coming over for a cookout like old times. We could not stop laughing & I missed those moments! Brandon's text convo and the suggestions Leila & I said for him to text.
-Got my first apartment at school & was able to bring Tango with me!
-The animal shelter :D
-Going to Zumba for the first time...and I'm SO glad I did! It's been such a stress relief, good work out, and something fun for me to do. Met a few new people including Sophia! :) Plus I got more in shape! :)
-Leila staying with me during Homecoming weekend. It made some situations so much better!
-Hanging out at Sophia's apartment for girls night and American Horror Story (one of my new favorite shows now). It was so great to have some people to laugh & talk with!
-IHOP with neighborhood peeps until like 12 AM
-Priscilla stopping by while I was home one weekend and catching up!
-Getting my cartilage pierced my bday weekend, then going to Dahlonega for a day trip with my sister even though getting lost was sketchy! haha! The corn maze and haunted corn maze in the dark!
-Pretty much the WHOLE month of October. I wish I could relive some of it! I had some really good memories and happy moments throughout that whole month! <3
-LUDACRIS Concert! I had so much fun dancing and singing all the songs with Sophia & Caitlin!
-My student teaching experience for fall semester. I truly loved those kids and the staff. I wish I could stay there for internship to be honest!!
-Getting closer to some people in my life.
-Getting some good advice from people about school and life.
-Leila staying with me in November and going to Zumba & the animal shelter with me, and to Douglasville to go shopping. We also stayed up til about 5am trying to do homework and were falling asleep! Watching the people towing the cars in the apartment parking lot and yelling at them when they almost hit my car because they were terrible towing people!
-All the talks on the car rides back home after picking my sister up from GSU. We got to update each other and never stopped talking that whole weekend together.
-Getting a 4.0 again for fall semester!
-Neighborhood bonfire
-More venting & catchup conversations with Priscilla at the mall.
-My sister being able to get off the morning shift for Christmas day
-The "good deeds"/productive day when we donated lots of clothes to Good Will, gave food to a homeless man, took Nyxie to a do-it-yourself bath, and got so much done that day.
Well I think that's about it for now. If I think of anything else, I'll just come back & edit this!
I did have a lot of great things happen and good memories even with the struggles. I'm glad I was able to enjoy those moments! Hopefully this year (2012) will be more positive and uplifting.
I know whatever I do this year and in life, I will always be there for myself and be able to depend on myself.
I know who I am. I trust who I am. And I know that wherever I go, I will do great things!
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Sunday, January 1, 2012
Thursday, December 29, 2011
I'm So Proud of You.
"I know things get hard, but girl you got it, girl you got it, there you go."
So in case you didn't know, I got the title to this entry and above quote from Drake's song "Make Me Proud" from his "Take Care" album. It's catchy and I feel like some random lines can apply to me personally. I just want to sum up my feelings about 2011 since it's almost over. It's literally been a difficult year. Most people wouldn't have even known anything was wrong with me because I was able to phase it off for the most part. I tried to laugh and smile and keep with the normal routine of life because "life goes on" as they say.
I'm proud of myself especially after this year. I don't know if anyone else can notice what I've noticed because they are not inside my head, but I've gotten through this year to my surprise.
I'm not even kidding when I say that I look back at this year and think about how I even made it through some of the stuff. I know I've mentioned this in a few blogs before, but I'm still in shock. I sometimes think about it in depth and I just don't even know how I managed to cope with pain and still continue on.
I didn't do it all on my own, but I did find so much strength in myself this year. So many times I've had to give myself "motivational speeches" in my head and push myself through the day. So many times I cried and then picked myself back up from those low points. So many times I went running on campus just so the emotional pain would go away as I got my mind off the situation. So many times I just wanted to break down and give up.
I do want to thank the people who were there for me this year when I needed someone to talk to, some advice, laughter, good times, support, or a shoulder to cry on. Your kind words and care have meant so much to me and it makes me tear up writing this because I'm not sure how I would have been okay in certain situations if I wasn't around those certain people or able to contact certain people right at a particular moment.
Thank you Ashley & Aryon (if you read this!) for being by my side especially at Starbucks that day. I really don't know how I could have handled that situation and pain without you both being so caring. It was so great to have the fun and happiness of hanging out with both of you as a distraction, so that I wouldn't be alone dealing with all the pain. Thank you to my sister, Leila, for answering the phone when I called you crying and hurting so badly. I'm so grateful that I had you to help me get through some of the drama. I know you were really worried about me and it means a lot that you cared that much. Thanks to my mom for being there when I called you (crying as well) and needing someone to talk to. I'm so thankful you were there to listen and make sure I was okay.
And an extremely HUGE thank you to someone who probably will never read this, but who has made the biggest impact on me while at UWG. Although she wasn't around when all the actual drama was occuring, she played a big part of me realizing so much about myself and helping me gain more strength.
I've really learned so much about myself throughout the year as well. I've grown in certain ways. I've learned that I can ALWAYS depend on myself and a lot of people don't even deserve my time or attention. I've learned I'm really much more different than most people than I even thought I was. I'm not like everyone else and I like that about myself. It can be difficult at certain times in life, but I know in the end it'll be worth it to stay true to myself. This stress and bad occurance has made me more able to handle stressful situations. I used to get so worried about small things in life. I wouldn't know what to do in situations that didn't go as planned or my way. Now, I am so much better at handling those stressful situations. I work through them and realize it's not worth the stress because I already made it through some difficult stuff. This has also surprised me about myself. Instead of dwelling on issues, I try to solve them or think about the positive.
I know I still have a lot to figure out and growing to do, but I'm still proud of myself for making it through some of the hardest timesI've faced.
I know things will continue to be a struggle, but I'm more confident now that I can get through.
I might go through a lot of stress, but I'm going to come out of it shining...Pressure Makes Diamonds.
So in case you didn't know, I got the title to this entry and above quote from Drake's song "Make Me Proud" from his "Take Care" album. It's catchy and I feel like some random lines can apply to me personally. I just want to sum up my feelings about 2011 since it's almost over. It's literally been a difficult year. Most people wouldn't have even known anything was wrong with me because I was able to phase it off for the most part. I tried to laugh and smile and keep with the normal routine of life because "life goes on" as they say.
I'm proud of myself especially after this year. I don't know if anyone else can notice what I've noticed because they are not inside my head, but I've gotten through this year to my surprise.
I'm not even kidding when I say that I look back at this year and think about how I even made it through some of the stuff. I know I've mentioned this in a few blogs before, but I'm still in shock. I sometimes think about it in depth and I just don't even know how I managed to cope with pain and still continue on.
I didn't do it all on my own, but I did find so much strength in myself this year. So many times I've had to give myself "motivational speeches" in my head and push myself through the day. So many times I cried and then picked myself back up from those low points. So many times I went running on campus just so the emotional pain would go away as I got my mind off the situation. So many times I just wanted to break down and give up.
I do want to thank the people who were there for me this year when I needed someone to talk to, some advice, laughter, good times, support, or a shoulder to cry on. Your kind words and care have meant so much to me and it makes me tear up writing this because I'm not sure how I would have been okay in certain situations if I wasn't around those certain people or able to contact certain people right at a particular moment.
Thank you Ashley & Aryon (if you read this!) for being by my side especially at Starbucks that day. I really don't know how I could have handled that situation and pain without you both being so caring. It was so great to have the fun and happiness of hanging out with both of you as a distraction, so that I wouldn't be alone dealing with all the pain. Thank you to my sister, Leila, for answering the phone when I called you crying and hurting so badly. I'm so grateful that I had you to help me get through some of the drama. I know you were really worried about me and it means a lot that you cared that much. Thanks to my mom for being there when I called you (crying as well) and needing someone to talk to. I'm so thankful you were there to listen and make sure I was okay.
And an extremely HUGE thank you to someone who probably will never read this, but who has made the biggest impact on me while at UWG. Although she wasn't around when all the actual drama was occuring, she played a big part of me realizing so much about myself and helping me gain more strength.
I've really learned so much about myself throughout the year as well. I've grown in certain ways. I've learned that I can ALWAYS depend on myself and a lot of people don't even deserve my time or attention. I've learned I'm really much more different than most people than I even thought I was. I'm not like everyone else and I like that about myself. It can be difficult at certain times in life, but I know in the end it'll be worth it to stay true to myself. This stress and bad occurance has made me more able to handle stressful situations. I used to get so worried about small things in life. I wouldn't know what to do in situations that didn't go as planned or my way. Now, I am so much better at handling those stressful situations. I work through them and realize it's not worth the stress because I already made it through some difficult stuff. This has also surprised me about myself. Instead of dwelling on issues, I try to solve them or think about the positive.
I know I still have a lot to figure out and growing to do, but I'm still proud of myself for making it through some of the hardest timesI've faced.
I know things will continue to be a struggle, but I'm more confident now that I can get through.
I might go through a lot of stress, but I'm going to come out of it shining...Pressure Makes Diamonds.
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